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October 30th, 2004
12:11 am

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blah
ok things i have to remember
1. homecomming tomorro
2.birthday in 8 days
3. pick out car
4. galveston house party
5. lance and brendon comming down thanks giving break

hmm theres probably more but i dunno... ok so today was ok but weird, i didnt go to bed last nite so i left for vikkis house at 530 in the mornign and got there at 6 and jon took us out for starbucks. It was a half day and we didnt do shit in n e of our classes so i was just sittin there which was ok but i didnt feel like being at school. i got home and justin and vikki came over and i had to go to bowling at 3 so brandon took me to bowling and piked me up and then we went bak to his place and chilled for a lil bit and watched candyman? haha weird. so tomorro is homecomming and im going with nathin... i got my tite ass homecomming dress and i get my hair dyed at 2 tomorro. after homecomming theres a party in the woodlands i mite b attending to with jon brown but if not ive got a bottle of malibu at vikkis and i can just get drunk like last homecomming and ride down her stairs with joshies matress haha. sunday is halloween and i really wanna b a devil. like get a sexy red dress and some cute high red boots and devel horns and ill b set. i hope it works out. eh well im out got alot to do... ~pass me da green i need some weed with my hennesy~ muah!

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Current Music: pass me da green Master P

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October 14th, 2004
05:14 pm

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poem
a concentrated stare from across the room
there are so many things i start to assume
but then you make it perfectly clear
as you whisper dirty little secrets in my ear
theres a look in your eyes and i can see
how much you want to be inside of me
your kiss on my lips
your hands on my hips
the beat in my head is suductive and steady
i am willing and you are ready
a drop of sweat slides down my noes
trickles down my body all the way to my toes
our bodys are so close, its everything i dream
we arnt wearing n e thing, not a stitch or a seam
you trace my curves, every single one
im out of breath but were not done
your kiss on my lips
your hands on my hips
our souls are intwined, i see your every thought
i can tell what your thinking more often than not
so i go where i should and do what i can
to make you feel even more like a man
even though were not young this is not a gam
after this we will never be the same
bite me, pull my hair, and make me scream
baby you kno it im an adrenaline phen
your kiss on my lips
your hands on my hips
have you ever heard of a place called ecstacy
well thats where we are, just you and me
tickle, tingle, tempt, and touch
take your time, im in no rush
but your almost there and so am i
half way to heaven touching the sky
i hope and i pray
that mayb ull stay
we could be like this for eternity
within your arms is the only place i feel ever lasting and free
the stars begin to fade and the sun begins to rise
and its only that i realize
complete pleasure cant last forever
-the coolest girl ever rote me this poem jessie rippy

Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: people at my party talking

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September 30th, 2004
10:13 pm

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the truth
ok rite here rite now im ganna say everything i truly meen and im ganna try to not b all emo n shit cuz thats really not how i am. Ok lets start from the begining, theres this really really wonderful guy i dont desearve and amazingly on october 27th we started going out... after 2-3 months we started fighting alot and it really hurt me so i made a stupid choice and broke it off. even tho i still really really loved him and cared about him to the extent of dieng for him. on the days we were together and not fighting i was the happiest person and u can ask n e of my friends i was happier than i could ever b in my life. abpout a week ago or two everything just got so fuked up. at first we started getting really close again and i loved it... i loved just being with him and knowing that he was the only person who could make me feel so great, happy, and feel good about myself. After a couple days everything changed.So im hanging out with his friend brandon one nite and the hole time im talking about how much im in love with this guy and i bet he was gettin real annoyed but n e ways the guy he calls me up and i really really wanted to see him so much so im like begging him to come over and see me and then he started yelling at me for not calling him after 4 days and even tho i knew it was not an excuse i told him the truth. see i had been in a car reck 4 days bfor and was taking pain killers. mostly i just came home took a couple and went to bed because i had bad whiplash. i know i could have called him but i guess i was just being a bitch or something. so after he was yelling at me i got kinda sad/frustrated that he didnt understand and went to vikkis room. it was kinda imbarrassing crying imfront of a bunch of people but n e ways. so there was like 15 people at vikkis house that were sleeping over taking up all the beds which really sucked so his friend brandon being nice and all is like u guys can come to my house cuz all the rooms are takin and it would suck sleeping outside. thinking that this other guy trusts me enough because he loves me and love is mostly about trust, i say sure. vikki had to stay because her sister left a bunch of people at her house and she had to watch so i went over there. we ended up just wantching tv and then went to sleep. when we went to sleep i remember distinkly i was talking about how much i care about this guy and much i wish he wouldnt b mad at me cuz he hurts my heart wen he is and i fell asleep pretty much just talking about him. but nothing bad... so the next day we wake up and go grab coffee at starbucks and in the middle of sittin outside talking... guess who calls... yes him. rite wen he calls brandon hes like "hey man who r u with" and brandons like "o im with kaitlin and *the guy* is all like "o i hate her shes so annoying" i mean but really how can someone who loves someone so much (supposidly) say that kind of slander. so i go home on the second day of being sad and just cry but i think o its ok everythings ganna get better. after alittle while this guy is saying stuff like "shes such a slut" "i dont care go have sex with her , shed do it" "good shes crying i dont give a fuck" "i hate her" "she slept with my friend" and all this other hurtful shit. i mean i kno im not that good of a person but i am a human being and no one in this world should have things said like that about them especially if there not true and they "love" them. well it kinda sucks real bad cuz every day i hear something knew hes said about me that hurts so much and its like just knowing that im never ganna matter to him hurts me so much. and people say i deserve better but i cant get over the fact that i love him and im always ganna love him regardless how he treats me. well if u have n e ideas, help, or comments i really need them rite now cuz im on the verge of doing something i dont want to do please comment or im me and talk cuz i really need some help and friends rite now

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September 28th, 2004
04:01 pm

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free write
Post something anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, what you don't like about me, what you like about me, ANYTHING. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post more than once, if you'd like. Hell, I don't care if you post ninety times. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
Current Music: my addiction by rehab

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September 26th, 2004
09:11 pm

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spilling my shit
ok write now i need somewhere to spill because im really really sad so if u dont wanna hear me spill then dont read my shit k? so these are the things that have gone wrong this month that i can think of and lets see how i can make um better

1.camilo hurt my heart again by doing 3 things...
2.wrecked a persons car who i really really care about and he took all the blame for me
3.got told by a person i care about alot that they did cocaine again after promising on my life they wouldnt again
4.watched my best friend get into things that ive been in that i kno she shouldnt b in
5.watch my best friend cry over a stupid guy
6. got bitched at from my mom for crying and almost got grounded for 2 weeks cuz i was crying?
well now im crying so this shit really didnt work for relieving stress shit bi

Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: nothing

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12:32 pm

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sunday
why do i al ways post on a sunday... haha its crazay! well this weekend was ok... friday went down to gessner and have people over at vikkis house... saturday we chilled at my casa for a while(me vikk and ryan) and then we all went and played pool and met brandon up there. after playing an hour of pool we all went to vikkis house and like 10 people were already there and i had no where to sleep cuz all the beds were takin so i just went to brandons and chilled... his fuking house is huge cuz hes rich like a mothafuka.. so all we really did was like watch tv and i wanted to go in the hot tub so brandon turned it on but i ended up falling asleep like 20 min after we were like waiting for it to heat up... in the morning i met his lil brother and we went and got starbucks and then he dropped me off at my house so here i am now... and hopefully im ganna b out of my house soon. bla...

Current Mood: worriedworried
Current Music: we're all to blame

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September 21st, 2004
09:07 pm

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tuedayayayya
hey yah bitches! today vikki came over after skool n helped me clean which was pretty gay and i got kinda pissed cuz it was like wasting my day. after we cleaned it was like 430 and ryan got his happy ass over to my house with travis. we were driving down a road and there was a bunch of guys in the car behind us so we were like mooning them n shit and makin kissy faces at them cuz we were stuck in trafic. after that little expierence we were still in traffic so we played chinese fire drill and ran around the car. ryan tried to leave us guh! well we finally got out of the traffic but the messin around didnt stop cuz the guys that we were fuking with were following us for a while so we just kept on messin with um. After that we dropped travis off and vikki tried to get us lost. we were like all the way out in the country and we turned down a really freaky road... if n e one has seen wrong turn theyed be fuking scared outa there minds cuz its about inbreads who kill people and the whole setting where we were looked exactly like in the movie. we were leaving the freaky place and rite wen we were leaving a truck from the place started following us just like in the movie so we were goin like 80 down a fukin dirt road freaking the shit out until we pulled off to the side and let them go by... me and vikki were screaming our asses off.. well fun day, i hope to do it again tomorro. gtg call lancie poo now chow!

Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: build me up buttercup!!! haha

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September 19th, 2004
06:17 pm

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this weekend
ok starting on friday... me david beadie ryan and vikki all loaded up in ryans car and went down to gessner. we loaded the car with 48 beers 4 40s and an md. we were walking out of the store and a crazy bum needed a ride so ryan being a dumbass gave him one. that pissed me off but then i got over it. after that we went to vikkis and drank. the nite ended with some drama but we were drunk so we didnt give a shit. woke up saturday morning with a huge headache. some people came over and then later on that nite we went shopping for an outfit for the party we were headed to. we went shopping with stevo and got some cute shit from my madres credit card. after that stevo dropped me and vikki off at camilos house and we went to the party which was down the street and rite wen we got there the guy who was having the party was spillin shit everywhere and breaking like so much shit in his house. me and vikki played pool for a bit upstairs while camilo smoked outside and everyone just came upstairs. i played pool with this guy who was sapposed to be super good and beat him and he still had 5 balls left on the table...hell yeah. the kid that was holding the party ended up getting locked in his dog's cage while every one just watched him and laughed. i had a really good weekend compaired to last. today vikki and i hung out with beans and evan and went over to jeramy stanfords, jeramy iubi's, and ashleys apartment for a little bit and now ryan is at the door which meens were leaving with him so im out

Current Mood: thankfulthankful
Current Music: none

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September 11th, 2004
12:18 am

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friday nite
ok today is friday. first off i got out of skool and both stephanies came over and chilled...after that cody piked me up and we played some pool for a bit then he had to go to work at 5 so we came home and i fell asleep till like 8. at 8 bob piked me up and we went to sonic and went to jeramys apartment. acouple of people were there and we all chilled drank a few beers and talked. now im home its like 12:15 and im fuking bored. atleast propes is comming over in monday to teach me how to drive my stick shift. thats something to look forward to...well peace

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September 8th, 2004
09:02 pm

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who i love
ok ... willie tran is the sexiest guy in the world and i love him so much!!! haha is that good for u willie?

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